30 4 / 2012
I have been thinking of you quite a bit. I too lost my son, His name was Corey and he died the night of his 18th birthday February 19th ‘07. I raised him myself since he was 1. My only child. I just passed the 5 yr mark.
Firstly, so you know me , I am a 56 yo white woman and was a working RN through my son’s lifetime. He was very involved in musical theater and chorus, had a great deal of friends. On the first Mother’s Day those kids left a huge card in my door that they all signed and it meant the world to me . So I hope you feel the love coming to you from people who are sending thoughts and love to you.
Please take some time off now and stay in a quiet and calm environment w just those who are close to you. Mourning is a long and tough process that takes lots of time. Music and exercise helps, so does screaming in a pillow.
Let others represent you in public as much as possible. Find a therapist you feel good with. (I found this very difficult) Parents who have also lost children are the best to talk with.
I wish you strength and love through this most difficult of all times.